The Eleventh Insight

The Eleventh Insight

Sometimes a special person comes into your life in a time you do not expect. When that person comes, your life turns upside down. You begin to change the way you look at things. You change the way you understand life. You change the way you know yourself. And your world becomes so different, different that you could feel that all the stars aligned and brought together just for you. Everything seems to be perfect for you. And you become so beautiful. You become so sure about life.

When that person comes you are suddenly become vulnerable by choice. You opted to lay down you’re your walls. You chose to give up your defenses. You show everything you have. Even your insecurities begin to show. There are no secrets, only pure faith. You entrust the whole of you. You believe that the person who promises to be with you all the time will catch you when you fall. And that person did.

That person has the shoulder for you to lean on is always available. Ran for you when you call. Defended you when you are in trouble. Affirm you when you find it hard to see the good in you. Cheer you up when you feel down. Encourage you to hold on when your situation appears difficult and you want to go away. Make you appreciate even small things. Make your day with a simple smile. That person who is always there for you in tears, joys, happiness…You wish this could never end.

But then you suddenly wake up to the realization that everything changes. You do not have the power to stop it. You could only look at the way things are happening and that person slowly getting away. You wanted to hold that person to no avail. You realize you do not have the power to control the other person. You came back to the real world. You realize that this is an imperfect world.

An angel broke your heart. You can only fall down to your knees and beg God not to let it happen. You wish father time flies back so you can fix the things necessary to go on. You feel suddenly lost. You feel betrayed. You want the world to stop for you. You want to shout to all people to stop their life and look at you. Tears flow. Energy lost. You become weak and helpless. Sleep. Rest.

But the sun rises. Another new day. You tell yourself enough! Enough of being “emotera/o.” You realize that life is good and God is great. That the difficult and trying part of life is ended. You begin to accept that some good things in this life have an end. You chose to be happy.

You learn to forgive the person who hurt you. You still love the person. You still wait for the person to come back. But you learned. What you are sure is that the person became part of your life and that will never change. You still treasure every single moment you are with that person. You still treasure the person. And you love the person that’s why you allowed the person to make a choice.

You learn that life is also about taking risk. You risk nothing, you gain nothing. Nope, you are not a loser. You are still a winner. You learned about life and that is what is more important. You learned to forgive, to accept, to trust and to hold on to love. You are most thankful for everything that happened. You are not only living. You are alive! You are love!

*risk on God and you are a sure winner…big time!